Supermodel Chrissy Teigen has apologised for the second time for a series of "awful" tweets aimed at young celebrities.
The mother-of-two and wife of John Legend came under fire last month when a series of tweets from 2011 resurfaced, in which she told then 16-year-old media personality Courtney Stodden to repeatedly take their life.
"[Teigen] wouldn't just publicly tweet about wanting me to take 'a dirt nap' but would privately DM me and tell me to kill myself. Things like, 'I can't wait for you to die,'" Stodden, who uses they/them pronouns, said in May.
In now-deleted tweets, Teigen also attacked multiple other young stars, including Lindsay Lohan and MTV Teen Mom star Farrah Abraham.
Teigen has now penned a 1000-word essay for Medium, opening up about her "very humbling few weeks".
"I want you to know I've been sitting in a hole of deserved global punishment, the ultimate 'sit here and think about what you've done'," Teigen begins.
"Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven't felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I've said in the past.
"As you know, a bunch of my old awful (awful, awful) tweets resurfaced. I'm truly ashamed of them. As I look at them and understand the hurt they caused, I have to stop and wonder: How could I have done that?"
Teigen says she is currently in the process of reaching out to the people she hurt privately, but she "understands that they may not want to speak to me".
"But if they do, I am here and I will listen to what they have to say while apologizing through sobs."
The 35-year-old maintains there is "simply no excuse for my past horrible tweets".
"Many of them needed empathy, kindness, understanding and support, not my meanness masquerading as a kind of casual, edgy humour.
"I was a troll, full stop. And I am so sorry."
Teigen goes on to say she is "no longer the person who those horrible things."
"I grew up, got therapy, got married, had kids, got more therapy, experienced loss, and pain, got more therapy and experienced more life… and got more therapy," she says.
She finishes up by saying she will not be asking for her fans' forgiveness.
"I ask that you allow me, as I promise to allow you, to own past mistakes and be given the opportunity to seek self-improvement and change."
Teigen has lost multiple brand deals since the bullying tweets resurfaced, and the model's cookware brands reportedly were removed from US department stores Bloomingdales and Macy's.
At the time of writing, none of Teigen's victims have publicly responded to the essay.
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