Lorde has shared a series of intimate notes written to herself in her latest newsletter, including a rant against the internet, dreams of becoming a partner and mother, and an eerie prediction about the importance of antibodies a year before the COVID-19 pandemic.
Having vowed to stay off social media, the Solar Power singer has opted to communicate with her fans via email, speaking to them directly and offering insight into her creative process.
The 24-year-old let her readers know she had recently relocated to Los Angeles, and had spent the night before up late, scrolling through the notes folder on her iPhone.
"My Notes app also functions as a sort of interesting time capsule," she wrote.
"I can see lists of groceries or Christmas gifts I needed to buy years ago alongside deep thoughts about where I’m at and what I’m making as they start to form. I took some screenshots last night, cause I thought it could be of vague interest to you."
In the first message, from November 2018, Lorde tells herself: "People are relying on you to bring light to them in a dark time and to be a conduit for light and energy."
"Believe in yourself that you can do that for them," she added. "You've done it before."
In another note from around the same time, she despairs about the culture of social media, writing: "I hate the internet and the trajectory of every drama."
"Nothing is in perspective, no one listens… No one wants depth of big words, just shapes and noise. How not to go insane within that? And how to combat?"
The Grammy winner also shared an intimate message from 2019, in which she says she was "thinking more about herself as a domestic person, a partner, a mother".
"I want someone to see me across the garden and think, that is the woman I'm going to grow old beside. That is the woman I'll walk with at twilight," the note read.
"My golden dog down at the park, my search for a normal life."
The newsletter also includes a myriad of screenshots of Lorde's notes-to-self about creating Solar Power, including direction for the music video and the instruction to "write a big choral piece, [a] devotion to the sun, your opus".
Finally, the songwriter shared a "weirdly prescient note" in which she muses over the significance of antibodies in March of 2019 - around a year before the COVID-19 pandemic gripped the world.
"Antibodies, doing their work while we are sleeping," she wrote.
"Let's hope the antibodies do what they're supposed to do."
