Adjusting to life without their father in the wake of his sudden death has been a horrendous experience for Georgia Harris and her family.
But the young woman is using her pain of losing a loved one to suicide to support others - by joining the police force.
When she called 111 on the day her dad died at the family property, her horrified screams were met with kindness, patience and a sincere reassurance to send help quickly.
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She says she wants to be there for others like command centre workers were there for her.
Georgia's not angry at the man she looked up to as a superhero for the actions he took to end his life, but she resents the events in his life which ultimately stole him from her.
Sydney Harris, 53, had a long history of mental health issues that got worse over time that stemmed from trauma suffered as a child.
"We know that he wasn't thinking logically when he did it and he was sick for a long time," she told Newshub.
"We're angry at the factors that lead him to the place that he got to, to want to take his life."
He struggled to shake the tough experiences from his past and, for the eight years leading up to his death, fought to manage the battles inside his mind before reaching a headspace in which he saw no future.
Last week, the Harris family acknowledged the anniversary of Sydney's death, marking one year since siblings Georgia, Claudia and Campbell said a final goodbye to their protector.
His loss has left a "huge hole" in the Harris family as his three children and wife try to move forward without him.
As a hard-working, active and funny Kiwi bloke, he charmed wife Linda into a life together and they grew passionate about setting up their three children so they could achieve their dreams.
The Harris' live on a lifestyle block in Auckland's Oratia where Syd worked for eight years, taking care of tasks necessary to support the household and its surrounding 10 acres.
Georgia believes it helped him keep to keep the house immaculately tidy while taking care of the animals, completing little projects like building sheds, making sure the kids' washing was done and creating an environment they were proud of.
Remaining at the house has been tough for the heartbroken now-family-of-four as they feel the emptiness of his missing presence.
It's a noticeable void, trying to juggle managing their horses, dogs, cats, bunnies, sheep and cattle with their full-time jobs alongside general maintenance of the property and house chores.
In the immediate aftermath, family arguments would erupt at each end of 'screaming match hallway' as they assigned blame on one another when the tasks weren't completed.
"Our lifestyle block was turned from a lifestyle of heaven into a chore," Georgia says.
"All credit to the parents who have lost a spouse and have kids to look after because it's so hard, and mum just kept working."
Attempting to move forward has meant accepting some things are out of their control and learning to go with the flow.
"We've now learned, finally, just within the last month, to just be as we are," she says.
But their road has been traumatic. Nightmares and heartache fill their lives with pain. They have had anger towards one another and get frustrated by the different stages of grief gripping them at varying times.
"Everyone was on a different level of grief each day and you had to learn very quickly where that was on the so-called 'scale'," she says.
Georgia suffered vivid flashbacks of the day her dad died. The screams she cried out would circle her mind. The sound of the police siren racing towards her replayed as she tried to sleep, memories of the agonising time she stood out the front of the house waiting for them.
In the months after, when she was driving and heard emergency services nearby she would burst into tears. Eventually, she turned that into a positive mindset - that they were on their way to help someone.
Georgia took to using her social media as a platform to speak out about losing her dad because she struggled to find any public figures sharing what the experience is like.
She talks about the importance of community, openness and kindness. She believes it's crucial to form relationships with neighbours and store workers, so everyone can support one another.
In her experience, mental health services "need a reason to be where they need to be", which is often in crisis.
In the months following, Georgia's yearning to join the New Zealand Police grew stronger - a dream formed at a young age.
Georgia has been now accepted into the New Zealand Police Force communications team after going through the recruitment process at the start of September.
She started work for the New Zealand Police on the 14th of October, one day before the anniversary of his death, after being offered the job the week prior.
"I was really confident and really adamant with them that my trauma wasn't going to affect me in the job," she says.
"I know I don't have to be on the frontline to make a difference."
Newshub.
