Former Shortland Street star and The Project NZ guest host Kimberley Crossman has revealed she and her fiancé Tom Walsh have suffered a miscarriage.
In an emotional update to social media, Crossman said she had been "really struggling with it this past week" but had decided it was important for her to be honest about their pain and grief.
Sharing a picture of her in a hospital bed, Crossman wrote: "After thinking we would keep this journey private, I felt it was something we should share because so many women have walked this path before me and not many people talk about the emotional toll things like this might take and how best to navigate this kind of grief as a couple, family or as individuals."
Crossman has previously been open in the past about her battles with depression and despite sharing a series of seemingly joyous pictures in the past few days from the Disney Wonder cruise's first visit to New Zealand, she said she had "been in a huge battle internally with my brain".
"I feel I can't share all the sparkly things we do online and not be honest about some of the struggles. I share my journey with depression and anxiety on the Pretty Depressed Podcast and even though I feel great about the tools I have learnt, this past week has been incredibly heavy and I have been in a huge battle internally with my brain which has been unkind and not helpful... feeling moments of shame, confusion and fear of the 'next time' we get pregnant possibly being clouded by this experience. Statistically this is a very common experience but sometimes logic and emotions aren't aligned."
She also said she will seek professional help to deal with the loss.
"If you have been following me over the past few weeks, life has had many great moments, a family cruise, birthday parties, trying on wedding dresses and nesting at home... but also, many moments of bursting in to tears, wearing a diaper hoping no one would notice and avoiding alone time to prevent spiralling. I often tend to go into distraction mode till I am ready to create space to process trauma."
Celebrity friends were quick to rally round both Crossman and partner Walsh, offering condolences and best wishes in the comments.
In September, Crossman shared the news of her engagement to Walsh on Instagram, revealing he had asked her to marry him while on holiday in Italy's Amalfi Coast.
The pair met while working on a TV show earlier this year.
